Sunday, October 28, 2007

ping pong song-enrique

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?


If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get him to speak



Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.



Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?


How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don’t talk to me babe.




I flow through my act
And decide all the man I can ever be.



Looking at the last 6 months like I did
I could never see us ending like this.



How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How do you want me to love you?

Saturday, October 27, 2007

numb

I'm a disaster waiting to happen


So yr friend said.

Friend whom you only met twice.

And the second time was actually encouraged by me.

Because you didnt want to go

But I thought it was only kind and polite to see him off at the airport

As he didnt have many friends.

So much for kindness.

It definitely goes a long way.






And what have I done?

My friends tell me stuff too.

Friends I know for years.

Friends whom I met thousands of times

But loyally, stubbornly, foolishly I stood by you.

Because I love you.

But you don't love me.



You live only for yourself.


What about me?




And it's alright
Yea I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go



So Hello!

How you doing?

What's it like to ruin all my self esteem?


Let me blow off some steam

For 6 months

I've catered to your every whims and fancy




My heart got shattered like romantic roadkill

My heart is all splattered

Your ego got fatter

And I hope that you're flattered



Cause you broke me down
The best thing that you will probably ever have.

Monday, October 22, 2007

First Day of Field Camp

Swollen eyes

No better to let you see them now

My wasted heart
Will never learn todrive the demon down



When you love the devil
You sell your soul
And it's hard to make him go



Undignified


I am tonight



So give me false hope and promise me
you'll try to redeem yourself for the hundredth time



Lie to me if you must my dear


Give me a reason to have you here
Giving false hope allows me to still believe
In this powerful love that's consuming me




I'm hooked on a drug that steals my pride
It's hard not to seem
So undignified




It terrifies me
to think I'm not the only one


You'd be surprised
How much I cry when you are gone




When your angel's the devil
Your church is a tomb



But I need to be with you



I am addicted to the pleasure and the pain you give



I'm undignified
Enough for two

Friday, October 19, 2007

Detention

Growing up is a process of discovery and it often begins with the unlikeliest of things...

I had always thought in my mind that everything would seem smaller as I grew bigger.
Things like clubbing and all the what-nots.
They all seem less important as I grew.
Growing up had blown the world into an unmanageable size instead....


Everything familiar around me had collapsed and I was afraid.
I found myself lost, lost and smaller than I ever was.
I had struggled to stay afloat through this torrent of ideas, and things, and people.
But there were too many directions and too many possibilities.
I was trying too hard and it left me hurting and disconsolate.
There was nothing to grasp ad no light to look to.
Just an insurmountable mess ahead of me.



Well the years have passed and I kinda grew weary trying to work things out.
The colours were now dimmed but the gloom had gradually dissipated as well.
With time, I had lost my worries and subconsciously learnt to be happy again.
I found joy in lesser, seemingly inconsequential things like
Just walking with Clement to the bus stop with the breeze pressing up against our skin.



It was then I realised I had grown again.

Mended by you

I tried to make it work and I have learned the hardest way. I lost him in the end and when it was over,I turned my back on love.
I switched of at the mains and refuse to function.
I cried night and day.

You came up I swear that it was just like something from the movie scene. When we met, we connected. I never expected you’d be everything to me.


You are, everything I want to see and nothing that I wanna lose. With you I feel like I would never break.


I’ve been mended by you.
You’re the reason that I wanna stay and to go to places that I wanna go


He never held me close. You never let me go. Just when I lost the fights you were my soldier.

And now we are sitting here in such a different place


April 14th
Do you remember?


I've been mended by you.