48 hrs

In the past 48 hrs

I have visited Joyce at the hospital.

Wrestled Euphe on her bed. Very fun I must say.

Talked to this really really cute half ang mo neighbour of mine. He's really really gorgeous.

Found out that Joyce's dad is reading my blog and have been telling some rather untrue stuff to my parents about me.

Went to the gym*GASPS*

Went for a massage immediately after gym because I ache all over.

Watched the new Andy Lau film.

I still find the ang mo neighbour of mine really cute. He hasnt kissed anyboy before and was never in a r's because he's too shy. Tt's so cute!!!!

Rejected Gerrie when she asked me out coz I just didnt feel up to it which is weird. gonna talk about it with Euphe.

I realised Euphe shpuld always and must always be my pillow buddy because she straightens out all my thoughts and feelings. I feel quite lucky to have met her each time I meet her. Erm I guess i will treat her to the next dinner or hint hint she can cook.

I am having daddy instincts and I just wished I will have a daughter in maybe 5 yr's time

I am so sick of clubbing in MOS. The music sucks. The crowd sucks. The alcohol tastes weird. And there is no space to show off my superb dancing moves.

I went with Euphe, Gerrie and Alvy yesterday and left at around one forty five. That's a record low for me.

I don't know why but I'm not jealous.Weirdly.

Maybe It's Just Me

Maybe it's just me, but you seem finally happy
I don't think I've seen your face just glow
Like a neon sign and maybe we should be alone for ever after,
Cause even thought the nights are long
At least I'll make it another day

Cause I can't live if you're not happy
I can't live if you cry,
But I can live without you if it makes you smile

And maybe things got weird after all that went down
Things were oh so clear,
That I could never get the right
So tell me what your plans are
And tell me what you're doing
The only thing I'll hold against me is a picture of you tonight

Cause I can't live if you're not happy
I can't live if you cry,
But I can live without you if it makes you smile
And I can't wait to see you rise
And I can't wait for you to shine
But I can wait for you if all you need is...

Time for you to think things over
Time to talk the drama down
It's not a contest of who'll try harder
Or who'll cross the finish line

And I can't live if you're not happy
I can't live if you cry,
But I can live without you if it makes you smile
And I can't wait to see you rise
And I can't wait for you to shine
But I can wait for you if all you need is time

Mix tape

Butch Walker- Mixed Tape

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This is the song that me and Gerrie will get emo over.Enjoy.It's a nice video!

Candyman

Candyman (MUSIC VIDEO)

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Love Is Only A Feeling

The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand

'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all

Love is only a feeling
When I'm in your arms I start believing
But love is only a feeling
Anyway

The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed

That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I

Samsung rocks!

I just bought this Samsung E 900.
It has a 2 MP camera with flash.
It is a slide phone which means I can twist my head in a dramatic way and slide my phone and then pick up a call.
It has a micro SD slot which allows me to load MP3s
It is black and slick.
It has a vibrant color screen.

I love it....cant wait to start snapping pictures of friends. In fact I already got shots of Gerrie.-beams-

wholesome night

Last night. my mom cooked up a feast. Aunty Christine and Irene, Uncle Gan and Ron were invited. I asked Geraldine to tag along too. Dinner was really awesome and the soup was juz haha WHOA. I'm glad Geraldine likes my mom's cooking

After dinner, Gerrie and me went to watch Dreamgirls like FINALLY. Haha and like Ah bengs and Ah Lians, we raised our legs and rested them on the seats in front of us. Dreamgirls was really awesome and I was singing along to all the songs. MOVE MOVE MOVE OUTTA MY LIFE. AND I AM TELLING YOU I'M NOT GOING!!!!!I AM CHANGING!!!!!!!LISTEN TO THE VOICE HERE IN MY HEART!ONE NIGHT ONLY!!!

Well Gerrie rested her head on my chest and I was terrified that she could hear my accelerated heartbeat. It's cool watching a movie with a girl you have a mad crush on.

After the movie, we went to Coffee Club for hot chocolate.

Tonight I'm going to Yew Tee Community Center to well serve the elderly their reunion dinner along with Gerrie and Euphuie. Maybe after that, I will watch Paris je t'aime and Epic movie.MaYbe I will tell her how much I like her then. Maybe.

sarah chian

Euphe once told me there will be one person you can never get over. I thought about it and I think the person is Sarah Chian. not because I am not over her but maybe because I still wonder what things would have been like if it all worked out.


I never had all the answers
I never had enough time
But I sure had all the reasons
Why you weren't what I wanted to find

I never laid all my cards out
You just wanted to play
The Queen she waited on my doorsteps
While the joker and me went on our way


Maybe I was much too selfish
But baby you're still on my mind
Now I'm grown and all alone
And wishing I was with you tonight
'Cause I can guarantee
Things are sweeter now


These days everything is all business
Never in one place for too long
But there's no lack of arms around me
But I still wonder if somewhere I went wrong


And I'd wish on every star
For that girl and our life
If I did not think that


Yes, I guarantee
Things are sweeter now

For Joyce

Why do they make it hard to love you?
Why can't they even start to try?
'Cause now I feel a bridge is burning
And all the smoke is in my eyes

I realize I never let them know me
I always wanted to be right
Took a mistake to really show me
Exactly what they were like

I've been wrong but I've been changing
I've been wondering what to do
Here I am alone and waiting
For you

Why do I try and make them happy?
Why am I always playing nice?
It isn't easy trying to tell you
Exactly what's on my mind

Everybody's changing

These few weeks have been weird.

I fell in love with a girl I swear I hated in Tj

My best friend became this lesbian whore and this scares me,even though I am pretty much active in the gay scene, or at least used to be.

Euphe is once again my friend and I feel nothing but love for her, even though we met online, even though she can take me down anytime, even though her legs are thicker than mine.

My relationship with my parents are improving.

My nieces and nephews all ten of them still demand piggy back rides,sessions of catching and hide & seek from me. They still love me.

I introduced the girl that i have a slight crush on to my parents and they love her though she appeared in FHM in skimpy bikinis.

I haven thought of sex since like forever.

It's been hell of a ride. I do miss Joyce. I want her back. I am so sick of going to her house to look at her parents cry. I feel partly responsible. I wish I knew how to comfort them. But I forgot how I controlled myself in the world of temptation. I have sinned but I had my limits. I don't sleep around. I can count the number of times I have been drunk with my five fingers. Yes Joyce, your hubby was once havoc but he turned out pretty well because he didn't let loose completely. I wish I had taught you that before I let you go on a rampage.

I love Euphe. She really rocks my world. I like it when she said I wasnt so messed up anymore. I feel that I have grown a little. To not be so emo. To not let emotions get into my head. I no longer club to get rid of the loneliness. I realised how much I missed her during hanging out at her house. And I think our friendship is the coolest thing ever because I dun have to pretend to be interesting and be this boring old fart and she will still love me anyway. Or pretend she does haha!

And I still wonder how come Alvy can eat so much.