hmmm

What do I look for?



I don't know, I'm old fashioned I guess.



I look for the boy next door.



Someone with a good heart, and personality and looks to match.




The kind of guy that
when I leave for work in the morning
I wait just a little bit 'til he leaves for work too.



just to catch a glimpse of his back and great smile.



Hoping that maybe, one day, he'll notice that I'm watching
and he'll smile back at me.



and I think I have already found him

You Found Me

I love you boy,when I never thought I could love again.



I can so imagine you now, sleeping soundly
in your sweet sweet slumber.
And I wish you love and peace and happiness
and everything beautiful and kind.



The long bus ride home gave me time to think. It always gives me time to think. I like alone time like that. Just travelling, journeying. And no one's by my side. I love you boy, for everything that you are, and everything that you do. You're probably the nicest, sweetest, kindest, bestest thing that's ever ever happened to me so far. And I really appreciate you for it. And I thank God, or whoever it may be, who granted me this opportunity to stumble onto you. And I make an effort to recall every single detail, every little action, vividly, repeatedly. I love you. Everything's just so perfect and beautiful, it makes me cry. And I did shed a tear or two, when I glanced up at the star-filled sky from the glazed bus window.



I know nothing's permanent, and everything's transient. It's just that those stars just happen to be more permanent than you and I could ever be. We live, we die. They live and they die too. But our time alive is shorter. The earth, even, is not transient. But I thank God that in this state of flux, we're here for each other, now, and perhaps, in our little forevers - I love you.



It seems as if everything is predestined and that everything happens for a reason. I thought that Sarah Chian was my soulmate just because it turned out that we spent almost 3 yrs together. Perhaps she was, but it's all over now. And I have to move on. You meet various soulmates in life. And I know I've found one in you. In the way we think, in the way we speak, in the way we behave, and in the tastes we prefer.



If it wasn't for my birthday, I wouldn't have met you. Then again, if it wasn't for my parents or Euphe, I wouldn't have met you,a complete stranger then in a sleazy club. And I knew Keith from Friendster. And Keith knew you. And that was such a long time ago.If it wasn't for Desmond Ee, I wouldn't have be so broken. And that was such a long time ago as well.



All roads lead to Rome. All my roads led to you. If it wasn't for Ian Kan, I wouldn't have fallen into depression and I wouldn't have, jumped in and out of multiple relationships that caused me to degrade myself, to accept less and what I would normally have disapproved of.



Rebounds. Yes, I think that's what they're called.



Well,I am glad I did.



Because



otherwise,



I wouldn't have met you.



Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
You found me
How did you know just where I would be?
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between




You found me.

The animals were gone

Woke up and for the first time
the animals were gone
They have left this house empty now,
not sure if I belong



Yesterday you asked me to write you a pleasant song
I'll do my best now
but you've been gone for so long
The window's open now and the winter settles in
We'll call it Christmas when the adverts begin



I love your depression and I love your double chin
I love 'most everything that you bring to this offering
Oh I know that I left you in places of despair
Oh I know that I love you
so please throw down your hair



At night I trip without you
and hope I don't wake up
Cause waking up without you is like drinking from an empty cup



Woke up and for the first time
the animals were gone
Our clocks are ticking now so before our time is gone



We could get a house and some boxes on the lawn
We could make babies and accidental songs



I know I've been a liar
and I know I've been a fool
I hope we didn't break yet,
but I'm glad we broke the rules



My cave is deep now
yet your light is shining through



I cover my eyes

still all I see is you

take away your love

You're still captivating even though it's been so long
You used to love me
tell me baby what went wrong'
Cause now
you march to the beat of a different song
Try to understand that we needed space
But everywhere I turn
I see your face
I've been waiting for you to come home'
Cause I don't want to be alone
I still love you



Why did you take away your love
When did you think to just give up
How am I supposed to carry on now
Without you
You are my light



I have changed boy since I last saw you
When you left you don't know what you put me through
But my heart's still racing just being next to you
I can't escape the magic in your eyes
Is there a way to make you realize
There's no one more special to my heart



But you want us to be apart
I still love you



You were my world
You meant everything to me
You're the air I breathe
The song I sing
You are my king
But if we can try to work it
We'll show the world what love is about



Baby come on cause
I can't take no more
Of this loneliness
And emptiness



Why did you take away your love
When did you think to just give up
How am I supposed to carry on now
Without you

what is left?

so it all happened
and now it's all beginning.



i wonder,or is it?
i promise i wont restrict you.
so we may start afresh.
or does it work this way at all?



the closeness.the nearness.i am undeniably attracted to you
for all reasons i presume
i wasn't
in the first place
but now i feel so



each time i look at you,
each time i stare at you and into
your cute little brown eyes
that sense of attachment
slowly but surely beginning to form
i could tell you
i love youbut deep down
i am unsure
i am insecure
yes
do you love me too?



i see signs that tell otherwise
and your friends tell me too
but of coursei follow my heart
eventually


the passion when we make love
all that warmth
and at the end of it all



when it all ends
when i walk out



simultaneously



after it all
tell me




What is left?

part time lover

am i being too cautious now?


so says the objectives.


then again, i wish all the other voices would shut up
and let me decide for myself.



anyhow.you're probably going SISPEC and then Australia.



i should not miss you.
i should not love you.
what the fuck is wrong with me?



i wish i was your part-time lover.
i wish you had a full-time boyfriend
and i was the vixen on the sly.



terrible thoughts yes.
but at least i know
the vixen on the sly
would occupy your mind most times.



and you wouldn't have to hide anything from me even if you had to.
i want to know you're missing because you're with your boyfriend.
i want to know that the ugly me is capable enough to bewitch you from your hot boy.
i want to know that when you're not with him, you're with me.
i don't like this volatility.
i don't like all this mystery.
and i detest my insecurities.



i want to be your part-time lover.

tell me where it hurts

What is my day going to look like?
What will my tomorrow bring me?
If I had x-ray eyes, I could see inside
I wouldn’t have to predict the future
I wish that you would do with some talking
How else am I to know what you’re thinking?



If only people would say what it really was
What it really was
What it really was that they wanted
Tell me where it hurts
to hell with everybody else
All I care about is you and that's the truth



They don't love me; I can tell
But you do, so they can go to hell
Did they ever give you a reason
To believe in something different



If you’re looking for love, for what it's worth
I have plenty of it lying around here somewhere
If you are looking for disappointment
You can find it around any corner
In the middle of the night I hold on to you tight
So both of us can feel protected



Tell me where it hurts,to hell with everybody else.
All I care about is you and that's the truth
they don't love me; yeah I can tell
but you do, so they can go to hell



I’ve been loved but I didn’t know how to feel it
And I’ve been adored but I don’t know if I ever believed it
I’ve been loved my whole life but I didn’t know how to take it
Until...



So tell me where it hurts
to hell with everybody else
All I care about is you and that's the truth
they don't love me, yeah I can tell
But you do, so they can go to hell
But you do, so they can go to hell



Tell me where it hurts
Tell me where it hurts
Tell me where it hurts now
Tell me where it hurts...


garbage-tell me where it hurts