Fucked up Situation

Sky's fallen hard on my head

Heart's crushed by the weight of words

Paralysed, marred, unable to move

How did reality become this absurd?

What was meant for good now scars my soul

Memories of hurts, they take their toll

Can't stay here, can't let go

What do I do now, I don't know

Ace Reject

See my love Is all I can give you
Nothing more
This life is how I want it to be
With you and me
Staying together


Take it all I’m here boy
I got what you need
Talk to me


And help me breath
Wanna hold on
Just remember we


Wasting time
Until you heart and mind
Realize as I remember


I won’t disguise my love for you
It’s true I can’t


Wait for u to be there
All my life I need
Someone to make me feel good
And I wish that it was you

Every journey
another sign
Images always pass me by
Feel I live in the walk behind
When I think of you
Every moment i'm frightened
Had to erase all your messages


Couldn’t handle the things we said
Still I’m feelling you


It's driving me crazy
Baby
Lately you
Slipping away from me
I try to keep holding on
I get nothing wrong
There is something I didn’t see


We break up and
Make it up
Back and forward we never stop
Every time
A change of heart
I Can’t keep up
You say yes and I say no
When it turns hot
We make it cold


And still something
Between us holds Together


Sometime a light in me
I think our time is over
Aint how funny?
How sweet I dream
But the bed keeps getting on colder
Sometimes I close my eyes
It feels like I living by numbers


Cause I've been holding you so damn tight
I gotta to stop 'cause it's pulling me under

I only wanted

Doesn't it ever stay
Must it always fade away
Couldn't love ever be
Something tangible and real
Farewell, friend

Abandonment returns to taunt me again
I only wanted you to stay
Linger and mean the words you said
Foolishly I romanticized
Someone was saving my life
For the first time

I only wanted you to be there when
I opened up my eyes

I was caught in your masquerade
Wish I'd stayed beneath my veil
But it just seemed so easy to
Open up myself to you
Once more into the wind
The embers scatter
And the chill settles in

I only wanted you to stay

Clement the one

See I'm going through a situation
That I can't help
Wanna get a little closer
But I promised myself
That I would never give my heart
Away again

Clement, I know it's hard
But you gotta understand it
The truth is all the hurt and the pain
And the shit that you get
When you have it
Ain't worth it

I've been there so many times
I should know better but
I
Can't stop what I feel
When you're next to me
I really think
I
Finally found somebody
That could be the one

But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love

And I'm scared
And I'm nervous

Don't wanna be hurt anymore

This is bad
Cause I know that you're the one

See the problem with relationships
In general is that it's always a game
In the beginning they'll do
Anything to have you
And once they do it's never the same
And I, know everyone out there can relate

So the question is
One: do I really wanna trust this feeling?
Two: do I wanna let it pass me by?
Three: do you think it's only superficia?
lFour: could it actually be different this time?

Someone to love me
Someone to be my everything
Maybe I've stumbled upon
Finally found somebody

This is bad
Cause I think you are the one

morbid thoughts

it's as if everything is calm and peaceful on the surface
yet i'm trying to find something more
something more deep inside
and i dont know what it is

its as if there's lots of turmoil wrapped within
a whole load of junk
the jumble
then again so much emotion
so much emptiness

i don't know which is which
perhaps i've got a split personality
hahathe idea is ludicrous
but it is not impossible

manipulatedby what others think
what others say
that's so shallow i know
tell me all you want
but i am stubborn
and i am frank
and i will let you know thus
so filled with hatred
so happy on the surface

fuck

i dont say mean things
i dont insult
i try to be as kind as possible
apparently
the world loves mean people

i dont hate my life
i adore it
i just hate whats going on in it
the people in it
the happenings
some people pretend
so people can adore them

fuck
i dont want to pretend
im sick of pretending
i just wanna be my sick morbid self

i dont wanna be a bastard
dont wanna be a slut
dont wanna party the way i do
dont wanna
anymore
becausei am just not like that

innately
i think
i think because i know
i know that i am not.
i am empty
hateful
vengeful

its tiringto be so guarded all the time
goddamn it all

fuck it all
white roses on a grave
yellow roses on a grave
red roses on a grave
black roses on a grave

sometimes maybe sunny daffodils

not
they're not my cuppa tea
colourful geberas
occasionally then

maybe
maybe
maybe.

pensive

i guess i'm stuck in a kind of limbo.

today would probably be
or rather
is probably the happiest day of my life

so far
haha
i haven't smiled like that in a long while.
but oh well
good things don't last long for me

i suppose this is just one of God's way of showing me his light
of answering my long lost prayer
just one day
one day and i'd be contented.

i'm really grateful for that
thankyou very much,i hope it lasts.
well even if it doesnt
at least i have been this thorough in my emotions,for once
on the positive side.
then again
i am stuck in a kind of limbo
a gentle but sometimes jagged kind of flux

have i moved on?
i have moved on.
from what?
to what?
from a myriad of issues to an even more perplexing myriad of issues.

for now,this is the horizon
and this is the happiest day of my life
where all innocence prevails

when i smiled for once
sincerely from my heart
like a child
finding joy
in an amusing bucket of sand.

Polarised

We've passed the red light

And I've got no fight

Moving in a mad rush

No limit I can't stop

We're into overdrive

Hopelessly into you

Cause you know how to

Unwrap my feelings 'til

I’ve Opened up from inside

No reason to be shy

Every reason to be mine

Nothing's really sane but everything’s amazing

Slowly taking over me

Baby have you noticed, the sky is rearranging

I feel it move in me

Oh, the ground beneath us trembles and we fall

So I wonder, will we fall?

Cause I don't want to be alone

Caught up in a spiral

I tremble and rush

The moment we touch

Breaking out a hot sweat's

As good as it gets

I can’t get enough

Fall into a head space

Deep into a new place

Spinning out of control

You should know I don’t want to be safe

Every reason to be mine

It feels like I'm shaking up

Took all cool to fight it up

Uh uh

All I am is mesmerized

Mmh Mmh

Can’t believe what’s happening

Polarised